Left to my own devices.

It shouldn't be so difficult to be left with no one to talk to. I mean, sure, I could talk to anyone but at this very moment I need to talk with someone and there's no one to do that with. I need help, as usual. I seem to need that a lot. I'm beginning to realize that I'm not as independent or strong as I thought. At best I'm weak and good at acting. I don't know what to do. Everything is wrong. This is not the way things are supposed to be, not that I necessarily expected anything else.